I'm writing this for me... I need a place ot get it all out all that ive keppt hidden inside of me for the past four years almost five.  Dont htink this is for attention dont pity me, just let me talk just let me get it all out. 

Ode To You

We were best friends. Every where i went I knew you would be there to protect me, take care f me, love me when no one else would. You never judged me, sure we fought we were siblings what do you expect. We had so much fun together.  Do you remember hte day I thought that no one would ever love me and you told me that somebody would so lucky to have a girl as specail as your little sister? Do you remember the time i bribed you into cleaning by giving you alone time with your girlfriend?  Do you remember when you read me stories when I was a little kid?  Do you remember the time you followed me home without me knowing to make sure the bullies wouldnt beat me up? Do you remember when we made a fort in the trees behind the house using mom's best table cloth? Do you remember when we would go for walks around town? Do you remember your promises to me? Do you remember all the fun we had?  Do you remember the time that you were irratating me so i bite your face...? Do you remember the time my cat jumped out of the roof at you?  Do you remember the night before you left when you told me you loved me?  Do you remember?

When you left me, your family, did you think of those times?  Did you think of all the fun we had?  Did you think of the hole you would leave in the family? Did you think of mom and dad? Did you realize that we loved you more than life itself?  Did you THINK at all ?

I dont think you did. Cause if you had you'dde still be here, my older brother, my protecter, my best friend. I love you. But i need to say goodbye finally.  Farewell my friend.